New hairstyle

Wake up in the morning 10plus to go to NTUC to buy Meeyo's cat litter with JJ accompany me and we went straight to Ginza (a hair saloon) near our place to cut our hair, Freddie join us later that morning. We read some "Lau Fu Zhi" while waiting, then it was my turn to cut, Johnny the boss of Ginza help me cut. He asked: "How you wanna cut" I told him I really dunno what I wanna cut this time and I just tell him to cut short and I let him do the job while I wait for the outcome. Having maintain keeping long hair for a long time and maybe this time round I wanna change it, have it neat and short. The outcome didn't disappoint me, quite nice and went to work after that.

Nothing to write about work because work is always the same thing but we played that game again, this time Carin join in the fun. Maryana broke my yesterday record of 5mins 12 sec with her new record 6mins 55secs, I was shocked but I went for my turn, Carin join in with me to take the challenge. Carin had 12mins and me once again broke the record and was on the top table again with 14mins 15secs hahah...

Table
Joe 14mins 15secs
Carin 12mins
Maryana 6mins 55secs
Sharifah 2mins 41 secs
Jeff 2mins 08secs
Joshua 1 min 13secs
Christopher 43secs

P.S: hours later will be a New Year. Wishing all Happy New Year 2008!!!

Bad hair day

Boring in the morning, run out of hair spray, nearly late for work and slow in sales, makes me wanna sleep in the store for a sec lol... 11am came Ai Min, lucky got her to chat with me if not I'll go crazy. Carin and Maryana join in later, Jeff and Meow came to the store too, can't slack when they are around lol. Then I ask Jeff wanna play a challenge of the previous game we played that time, Sharifah broke my previous record of having a 2mins 41secs, then she became the top of the table. Jeff wanted to break the record, and the time starts.... after 2 mins 08secs, he gave up. Then it was my turn, I broke my previous record and I even break Sharifah's record easily hahah with a 5mins 12secs lol and I'm the top of the table now, I wonder who will be the next challenger in Prints to break my record, until then... lol

After work I went to Parkway Parade with Yanie, Fernie and Juanie to have our dinner there and to buy things. I went in Prints to say hi to Redzuan and Mardiana while they go to the food court first. We had Korean food, yummy and we walk around after that. Was tired after that challenge, the legs like step on lemon (jiao hen suan) fell asleep while taking bus 31 to Toa Payoh, went home straight and now I'm staring at my com, updating blog .

All things done and I'm ready to sleep now, night peeps!!!

P.S: In confusion...coma....

Movie review

Went to catch this movie just now. Damn funny at the first part of the movie and very touching in the end. A must watch even thou is a Korean show but is worth the money.

Title: "Mission: Sex Control"
NC16 (no nude)
Ratings: 5/5

A laughing day in Prints!!!

Today was boring working alone in the morning and is super quiet the entire morning, "bo mi kia jou" (nothing to do) one. Did some clean up, try to act neat in case bosses come in the middle of the day. lol I know is a lil fake but what to do, work smart, not work hard ya!! hahaha then 12:00pm came Aimin and Crystal, yeah got people to talk to liao and after 30mins came Maryana. The 4 of us look at each other because there isn't anything to do and not much customers, well we did chit chat a bit while Maryana went to the bank. Kellie join us at 4plus.

Well we had a lot of jokes and things that happen today makes us laugh big time. Laugh till my stomach cramp lor, we were laughing about the customer that came the other day which set us (the entire team in prints, Mary, Me, Jeff (laugh till squat at the corner with face red)and Lynn) laughing the whole night that sunday except Tin-man aka Christopher who didn't laugh at all and Carin, busying talking loudly with an customer whom we thought was her friend and we got it all wrong lol... This is the best joke of the year lor, even when we told those people that wasn't here the other day, they laugh like hell and some even laugh the second time when we said it over and over again.

Crystal who join us not long ago, who became our friend now had her very last day at Prints!! Hooray!!! Clap Clap Clap!!! We (Maryana, Kellie, Aimin and me) throw in some presents for her since is her last day and hope she likes it. We took a few photos but too bad those photos isn't with me so I couldn't post it here, but will post it some day and tomorrow will be Kellie's last day. We wish them all the best for 2008 and I wonder when is me and Maryana's last day in Prints man, getting sick of that place lol

Work became busier later and I stayed back to help since there isn't enough cashier and that's how I spend a day in Prints today...

P.S: Laugh laugh laugh non-stop.

SICK!!!

Didn't blog these few days because I'm sick le after partying, drinking and eating so much fried food during X'mas. Today almost didn't go work, lucky fever gone!!

Yesterday was X'mas and I invited Yan and her 2 sisters, Fernie and Juanie over for dinner. Cooked quite a number of things, with the help of Yan and my mum's supervision. Ok not bad, they enjoyed it and yes I didn't burn down my kitchen (Su Qin, too bad your dream didn't come true as my kitchen is still in one piece lol). After dinner was desserts and I'm super shack and tired, had a fever during the night and I msg Jeff and Jolene first in case I can't go work.

This morning Ai Min (a new colleague) waited for me to open the door and yes, I'm late AGAIN!!! I told her that I don't feel too good and I said I felt like vomiting, she was shocked and siam me and say: "Are you kidding? Wanna vomit don't vomit in here" lol Lucky she got panadol and I took one to tahan until I finish work. Then I saw PH walk pass Prints and I called her, chat awhile but notice that she like never cut her hair leh (she wrote in her blog saying she cut her hair) then I tell her that got cut like never cut de leh. She keep saying she did, I told I help her cut the helmet style, she don't want lol...

Then Christopher and Crystal join in at about 12:30pm, the whole day not much people de, then we chit chat, laugh and joke around lor but of course we got serve customers too la, but very little people needed our help, can say that the whole day was boring.

At about 7pm I bring things over to RC and I went dinner with Ariel since she is having her break, dinner at the food court, had san lau hor fun and sad to say, disappointments on our face. No very nice de, will not go back and try that again and we went to Robinson as Ariel wanted to buy a gift for her dad and I accompany her to give some opinion, and end up she go and find her vacuum pillow for her trip to Denmark next year, went to the perfume section and I saw Ah di aka Chin Boon, a friend of mine working at that section and we chatted for awhile, He told me that Patrik also come here to buy perfume before, I wanted to tell him that he once worked here de haha but I didn't. Then Ariel went back to RC and I go home after that.

Later gotta pop any 2 more panadol before I sleep man, hope I recover by tomorrow

P.S: I miss da da... Happy 4 years 2 months and 1 day!!!

Donuts!! work and work

Wah piang eh!!! Wasn't busy in the morning and I went to the bank in the morning with loads of money, well not really that much la keke, walk pass RC saw Jolene with all new comers, thinking she will die today man. Su Qin ask me whether I wanna share donuts? after banking in the money I hurried down to Donut Factory to get a pack of 6 to eat, 2 for me, 2 is for Su Qin and 2 is for Maryana, lucky no queue, buy liao faster chao don't let people see keke. I gave one to Jeff as he buy me lunch today hahaha Gossip about people, colleagues and anything during lunch at Qi Ji.

So HARD to act busy in the shop when the bosses are around, it's so funny, when I go around asking customers, none of them needed help but when they are at the counter start to ask this ask that, TCMI lor!!! I totally going nuts, bo lang need my help in the shop. Then at one time I stoned there, Lars ask me, are you tired? I told him, "No, I'm hunting down all the customers!!" Got this female customer ask me do we do gift wrapped? I told her yes, we do. Then she ask me, will the cards do? I laughed and told her, how can cards do gift wrapped lol... She was like, "oh ya, sorry I go get some wrappers then." Then she's back with the wrappers and ask me whether is it enough a not w/o showing me the gifts. So funny lor, never show me the gifts, how to judge how many she needs, after that she took out a lot of panties and she say she wanna wrap these. I was like, ok and Su Qin help to wrap those up. Then work til 7 and I chao liao, boring nothing to do and da da went over to her friend's place le.. Walk around at J8, found out there's a lot of stores changed and I went back after that.

3:30a.m not sleeping yet, writing blog, listening to music and waiting for da da to go home before I get to bed...

Busy busy busy me

Busy busy busy me!!!! First thing I see when I step into the store at RC was stocks, yes and is a lot of them. Since morning, we been doing it and till the end of work then we finish checking all those stocks. Was thinking why did I work so hard for when I'm about to quit, I think is because of responsibilities and working is a passion for me, is in my blood. To think about it, my dad had work too much too, he used to work 2 to 3 jobs just to let me have a good life, if only I can let him enjoy life now.

Went dinner with da after work, so full after eating, ate too much le keke went home after that, da da play with Meeyo while I rest at one corner keke. Lazy me and tired after work, just wanna rest my mind and body for awhile guess I shall stop here.

Switching off now...Zzzz...

Back from chalet

I'm back from chalet!!! So damn tired, having less hours of sleep at night. First of all I wanna thanks those who contributed in the chalet and those who attend the chalet have brought wonderful memories to me. I had so much fun, drunk and I laugh so much till my stomach cramp. Too bad photos wasn't with me so I couldn't post it here.

Went to PH's band concert yesterday, it was a success and they were good, I enjoy it. Those songs they played, some of them was my favorite. Then went dinner with JJ, PH and Zhihui (PH's friend), Zhihui's action was so funny, she eat prata half-way fly away from her plate hahaha then went home with JJ. Tired and shack, slept straight after bathing. Had to wake up damn bloody early for work, SIAN...

Worked this morning, Neny came this afternoon, didn't tell her that I'm leaving the co. cause I don't know how to start. Nevermind once I decided then I leave... Went to catch the movie National Treasure: Books Of Secrets just now at AMK hub with JJ, the movie is nice, puzzle-solving adventures with lots of excitements thou I didn't catch the first National Treasure but this one is a hit, I give a 4 out of 5!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!

Hahaha went to work today with a BIG smile keke. Very busy in the morning as I need to clear the stocks up the selves. Then after 3, finish work went to the book fair with the accompany of Su Qin and got myself a book which tells us where to find good food in Singapore. Then walk a while and I meet up with da da, had our dinner at Olio Suntec, the food is nice, the servers were polite and atmosphere there was good too. Thanks da da for the dinner treat!! Love you!!!Cancelled our plan for movies as the two of us very tired!!! lol will be off to chalet tomorrow and back on tuesday morning, Meeyo is gonna miss meeeeeee hahaha. Off to bed now...Zzz...

Thanks to Zelia, Pei Gin, Ariel, Melvin, Julius, Derrick, CS, Ah Hao, Aloysius, Jefferson (my boss), Freddie, Li Juan, Lynn and Kenneth for the birthday wishes to meeeeeee love you all!!!

Congrats to Felicia Chin for getting in 十大最受欢迎.

Taken at Olio, 16/12/07 Me and da da

P.S: Christmas is near!!!

Thanks to my family and friends

It's my birthday!!! Ya I'm 25 this year le, omg so fast!! keke Thanks da da, Fernie and Juanie to celebrate my birthday over at her house. Thanks mum and da da's mum for the Ang Bao they gave me, thanks Ruting for the present, thanks to da da, Fernie, Juanie, Jasmine(my er jie) & her daughter Phobe, Wan Zhi, Meishi, JJ, PH and Caroline for the wishes they send me... Love you all lots lots!!! lata will be going out with da da, so happy!!!

Mango cake with strawberries!!! From Bakerzin

Taken at da da's house thank you!!!

Brand New Day

This morning my bro-in-law came with his lorry to pick me and Patrik up to his house to collect a treadmill from him. Yes I have a treadmill now in Meeyo's room, I'm gonna make Meeyo's room to half gym and her room now keke. Thanks to Patrik help, if not I'm gonna die bringing it back...lol

Went lunch with JJ and Patrik, then we went out to Vivocity to jalan jalan. We saw a giant Christmas tree at the top floor, too bad is not during the night if not if they light up will be very beautiful then was Daiso, bought some stuffs there and we continue to walk, we came to a pet shop, if I'm not wrong is called Pet Safari saw a couple of cute lovely dogs and I took a pic of this dog, breed of the dog was Chow Chow 鬆獅犬. Walk half way, was a lil hungry so we stop at the Dippin'Donut, I wanted to try donut that I never tried before so I get Wasabi donut while JJ got himself a chocolate one. Yummy!!! The 1st thought was I doubt it ain't that nice BUT I was wrong, it was delicious. Went on to shop, we went to the Spain2dream, went to the chocolatfactory store and Patrik bought chocolate for a friend, I wonder which is the lucky girl to get those chocolates cause they really looks nice. Went back to AMK hub for our dinner, Patrik intro us the fish soup store and is really nice, shall bring my da da there to eat someday.

Bathed and get ready to watch channel 8, Huang Jin Lu 黄金路, and recently got influ. by my da da, get into Korean show from Channel U, 10pm, Witch Yoo Hee 魔女宥熙, is really funny and entertaining to watch.

Danny's birthday just passed, Christmas is coming and my birthday is coming (omg so fast 25 liao), was busy so I didn't get to post Danny's birthday here, but I still get to congrat him in school that day. Anyway will be off to chalet on Monday with my classmates to have fun, de-stress a bit bit ba haha...

Chow Chow

Giant X'mas tree

Too bad, no strawberry one :(

Yes!!! Finally!!!

First of all, CT is over, finally!!! After this few days, we can finally let go for awhile. I didn't have the chance to tell "scanner" not to copy in CT cause there's a lot of people around her and I don't wanna embarrass her in front of many, will find a chance to do so.

After CT, we went over canteen to canteen just to look for her, Felicia Chin 陈凤玲, at last we found her at North canteen and we took our chance to take picture with her, too bad Kelvin, didn't get to take with her as Melvin took his slot hahah... woah a dream come true for me...

Me and Felicia Chin

After lunch we went for a "short" DOTA game at raiders, it took us 2hrs to hammer each other, xiong man!!! lol. Head to NTUC with the guys and then I went home to bath and get ready to go out with my gf, Yan and her sisters, Fernie and Juanie. We went Wisma and Taka to shop for Christmas gifts, shop till jiao suan, bought donuts from Pop doH donuts for her and her sisters, got some for JJ too. Went over to her house after shopping, help to gift wrap their gifts, wrap till shou suan, I want massage!!! lol Didn't realize my hp rang for a lot of times, sorry JJ I didn't look at my hp so I didn't get your msg too BUT I did save the donuts for you.

Pop doH's donuts

Mood: Super Happy today!!!

Song Recommendation (POP)

Artist: Leona Lewis

Album: Spirit

closed off from love I didn't need the pain

once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
time starts to pass before you know it your frozen

ooh

but something happened for the very first time with you
my heart melted to the ground, found something true
and everyones looking round thinking I'm going crazy

ooh

but I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you,
they tried to pull me away,
but they don't know the truth,
my hearts crippled by the vein that I keep on closin

you cut me open and I
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, I keep bleeding, I keep keep bleeding love,
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love,
you cut me open

ooh

trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling
ooh

nothings greater than the rest that comes with your embrace
an in this world of loneliness I see your face yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy
maybe, maybe

but I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
they tried to pull me away
but they don't know the truth
my hearts crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

you cut me open and I
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, I keep bleeding, I keep keep bleeding love,
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love,
you cut me open

and its draining all of me
oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
they try to pull me away
but they don't know the truth
my hearts crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

ooh you cut me up and I
keep bleeding and I keep keep bleeding love, keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love

oh you cut me open and I
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love

oh you cut me open and I keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love.

News Update: "scanner" acts again!!!

Oh no, my maths, I think is gone case le. Studied so long yet when I went in to the lecture room for my paper I forgot all the formulas (Shi Mu, Di Zhi gu fu le ni, will work harder from now). I flipped to the back of the paper for the formula list, blink once, blink twice, I wanna cry liao don't have the formula that I want and all the formula are all from my first year first sem de, Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I only know how to do a few of them, headache during halfway of the test, felt like vomiting then I fell asleep for awhile lol Wake up still dunno how to do, SH*T!!

"Scanner" this time round been caught copying by our own classmates (CS and Derrick) and this time she gone too far le, she even called out to her friend, "CP, show me your answers for question 3!!" Fair enough, sometimes we do copy one another but we won't go ask around during common test. I mean if she wants to copy, do it a tactical way instead of calling out for answers, does she know that if she get caught by lecturers instead of us, she might be debarred and even worst, her friends might get into trouble too.The lecturers are not blind and they keep walking near her area and even stand right at her back. Not that we don't really like her in person because she's not attractive or she's plump and we keep picking on her but the fact is her attitude and behavior makes us think that way. There's one time, during their Cost Accounting test in the last sem, she do that too, she ask Kai Hong for answers. Kai Hong is already stressed out for the questions yet she kept pestering him and those persons around her. After the test, she tell people that the others kept asking her for answers, Kai Hong got so angry and he told us the truth. Copied and even lie to us, horrible act. I think we should tell her straight to her face and warned her not to do that again if not we might one day can't tolerate and report her to the lecturers.

Munchy!!!

Yesterday was very shack, IPPT in the morning, revision in the afternoon. I think I didn't sleep well last night, cause I woke this morning with an aching shoulder. Was going to blog last night but end up I didn't, walk past Blk 304 yesterday and it bring me but to the past where by I can still remember some friends that live at the block, first was a girl from my primary school (can't remember her name lol), secondly is one of my good friend from my secondary school, Wei Lun, (I wonder if he still stay there?) I used to go to his house to play playstation and we always hang out together after school until one day, we go separate ways because of a misunderstanding, I really regret and I wish that day didn't happen and we can still be friends but all that is too late le. Thanks to Kelvin we got donuts from Munchy during our revision yesterday hahaha...

Munchy Donuts, the one circle in red is Power Pop covered with chocolate and coco pops, YUMMY!!!

Went to study just now at AMK Mac, Phoo Wai put us aeroplane and we were stuck while doing maths so I jump to Cost Accounting instead, was noisy and my whole body was covered with mac's smell. CMI (Cannot Make It) we call it a day and we went home. Came home and I rush to the toilet to do "BIG BUSINESS" lol and I sat down to rest and play with Meeyo while waiting for da da to come over.

IPPT

Woke up at 5:30am this morning for my IPPT at Maju Camp, took bus 74 there, I ask the bus driver whether Maju camp is at the last stop that bus 74 stops?

Bus Driver: "ya" while nodded his head.
Me: "ok" and I went up to the upper deck of the bus

After awhile the bus bypass Maju Camp and I was stun, isn't the bus should be stopping? No, is goes on. Bloody sh*t, I alight 2 bus stops away and I have to walk all the way back. Ya Ya Ya my foot ar, the bus driver told me the wrong information lucky I can see the Maju Camp sign.

During the in-process, we need to surrender our camera phones outside the camp where they have lockers for phones, lol and must pay 20cents lor. Get myself warm-up for all the stations, I saw Guo Liang, Wendy's lil brother, we chat awhile and I continue to do my stations. After the 4 stations is done, rest awhile and we go for our 2.4km run. The route is good but I couldn't run like before liao due to less trainings and late night supper with JJ lol... During my 2nd round I walk a few times and the last few meters I dash towards the ending point and ta da, I pass my IPPT with incentive. I went home with a smile on my face while most of them there are going for their RT lol. Most of them fall out during the run, some that I saw, their results during the 4 station are far more better than mine but they didn't finish the run, lu gi lor, see the money fly away. 1st to tell was my darling, got her congrats ya, I get the money I treat you da.
Rest awhile and getting ready to go for revision.

lol look at the timing for the run, just 0.03secs more and I nearly couldn't get my incentive

Thanks to this pair of tired legs!!!

Just another rainy day

Being a lil late to school today, woke up at 10:30am in the morning but I see no signs of any bus 159 so I wait and waited, I still end up a lil late. Ate a small sweet orange which I took from home in the class (da da must be jealous that she couldn't have it lol I buy you some next time). Shared half with Danny, Ah Nei (Pravin) ate one from him. Copied a few notes to study for CT, then CS accompany me back home to take the sem. project-piston which he reminded me a few times to bring it to school as he forgot to do his. If you can recall, he's the one that the lecturer called him a junk collector which I did post about it, lol. Came back just in time for the lesson, so we can't have our lunch and I bought some snacks to eat while walking towards the class. Went in class and he told us got test assignments to do and must hand in by today. SH*T!! I keep drawing and rubbing, was not fully finish but still need to hand up, bo bian at least I did better compared to the last assignment that we do. Was raining during this lesson, just like last week.

During EG2126, lecturer was giving tips, everybody was busy snapping photos using their hp for the solutions, while me sitting in the corner of the class, freezing and looking out of the window watching it rains. I still got copy the notes by hand too, using hyper speed in copying while the "scanner" beside me was busy walking in and out from my row of seats just to take photos like everybody else, luckily I was sitting in the corner, if not she kept walking in and out like that I sure scold her lor.

Had dinner with JJ just now at blk 339, their food really standard drop, not as nice as it used to be, sad case. Went home and I lie down on my bed to rest for awhile and I fell a sleep till 10plus, I went for my shower and now I'm rotting in front of my com, listening to music, writing blog and I'm hungry again.

Being raining this few days, tomorrow got IPPT better not rain in the morning and hope I pass, even if I don't pass don't kana RT can liao lol...
Going to sleep now, Zzzz...

The small sweet orange

My cute Meeyo sleep on a chair beside me while I type my blog

Jazz to smooth my ears

Feeling a bit lousy yesterday, from the time now, yes it is yesterday (07/12/07). Thinking of what she told me and I think she doesn't feel good too. Why must a r/s have so much problems? Can't we just love one and last forever? Thou I already knew the answer but I still wanna ask. Will there be a day that I'll no longer find my answers anymore?

Having problems with my revision, got stuck somewhere and dunno how to do, but will still try to do my best!!!

I think I change the music in my juke box with Jazz to smooth my ears and my moods now. There isn't much people listen to Jazz nowadays, which I find them very nice and it really suits all ages.

How I wish I wouldn't have to think so much, tired, headaches and stressed.

Don't think le, go sleep... Zzz...

Getting busy soon

Being feeling better since the "cold war" has ended. BUT there's another war going to start, our CT is just next week, time to prepare for the CT. Had EG2126 test today, lucky didn't late but ALMOST, lol thanks to Derrick's magical msg that woke me up, he wrote: "Don't be late, got 2126 test" I jump out of my bed, wash up, pack my bag, kissed Meeyo and rush to the bus stop. After the test we got 5hrs of break, Kai Hong suggested lan game, so we went to play for awhile, is was fun as most of us have lost touch of DOTA now keke. Went back to school after lan game and the lecturer gave us tips for themofuild and once again we had a 2hrs break again, sleep inside the class and we went for our night class, test again, this time is a EG2129 practical test. This time I'm more careful and patience, make sure there's not mistake before letting the lecturer check, he told us that we did quite well and no one fail, yeah!! On our way back, CS told me that if the next time we ran out of time in our test, we can sing to the lecturer: " 再给我两分钟" (a part from Jay Zhou's song called 最长的电影) lol that CS can really make me laugh with his silly songs re-mixing even if I'm angry or pulling a long face, lol.. Joker. Will be blogging lesser for now, cause gotta buck up for test now, see ya guys!!!

IMPORTANT, something about WOW Noodles

This evening, I went to WOW Noodles at AMK hub to eat with Yan, we found a cockroach in Yan's bowl, SH*T!!! It totally spoil our mood especially today when the two of us in a moody state, I told one of the staffs there and they still wanna change a bowl something else or even give us free desserts, Yan felt disgusted and she went to the toilet. It spoils my appetite, I stop half way and the staff there gave me back a refund but no way we are going back there to eat anymore, no matter how sorry you are. So if theres any friend reading this, please think twice before stepping in that place, by the way their services isn't that good also.

Moody and confused

Moody, confused and feeling lost. I feeling like that for the past few days, had another fight yesterday again, this is rather a tough one cause any wrong move will just change the future between us. Today I meet her for movie at AMK hub, everything is just not going smoothly, she was moody and feeling very low. I dunno what's wrong here, did I said the wrong thing? Did I make a serious mistake? Why don't you talk to me like the way you used to? She told me that I care more about my friends than to her, she says that she's no longer the first priority anymore. That really breaks my heart, I tell myself, maybe I'm really care about my friends too much which "some" I shouldn't give a damn. Maybe I bother too much about others than to myself.

4years of r/s, are we really not up to any challenge? Is it the love I give you isn't enough? Love can never be long lasting, at least I cherish every moment we had, every 25th, small details about ourselves and what can I say. You put up to all those nonsense I gave you, I'm a troublesome one, always letting you be insecure, always letting you down, always make you cry and somehow whenever something wrong between us, I think you don't deserve all that, you deserve someone better. Someone that can give you the assurance, love and less troubles. That's what I think but I dunno what you might be thinking. Should I still be the guy in shining armor who always protect you, or I simply don't shine anymore? Would you be any happier if I let go of you...

In deep thoughts...